[kj] I'm still ALIVE-RAVEN is with us all!(manifesto alert!)

[damon cook]

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From: damon cook <soundmagick at gmail.com>
Date: Sat, Jan 24, 2009 at 4:11 PM
Subject: I'm still ALIVE-RAVEN is with us all!(manifesto alert!)
To: gathering-request at misera.net


Dear Gatherers,
First of all,let it be known that the process of sitting down and attempting
to explain with language what has occured to me in my reality to all of you
is an event I have looked forward to forward to for quite some time and also
something that causes a certain level of the old stress and anxiety to rise
up in me spine.
"Language is a virus from outer space" is a quote that keeps swimming around
me head... Communication is vital to me however and the struggle must go on.
Evidently the day has finally arrived that I am back in the virtual
world,safely ensconced in my new sanctuary stronghold living space for the
first time in all of my life and I must tell you RIGHT NOW,Gatherers, that
Raven,yes-the eternal bridge between life and death,darkness and
shadow-RAVEN!- the man whose friendship gave me the courage to stand up for
myself again and face the struggle...
I have a sneaking suspicion you lot know of whom I type...
duh motherfucking duh
this is the part where language fails me
let's try verse

the inquisitions against the witches
turned into a war against the "mentally ill"
in 2004-5 i spent 6 months as a ward of the state
then shipped to the countryside
a compound for the mentally ill
2 years later i got a tattoo
for me and my daughters
green,pink and yellow
my holy trinity pyramid
squibah was there
raven came
3 strikes and i was out
evicted to the streets
onwards and upwards
to the west coast i go!
raven's on the phone again
toilet paper delivery!
in a polka dotted bug!
the salvia divinorum brought the hendrix
purple haze in me brain
got my band online
uh-oh!
alien vs predator
scary scary!
the lawnmower lawyer
was looking minnesota
and feeling california
locked my black raven ass up
in the invisible solitary cell
me and blade and raven  and sasquatch
and bush in the space needle
selling his blood to tourists...
we did away with him
10-4 good buddy
over and out
THE INQUISITORS CALLED THE SECRET SERVICE
uphill from there
insanity trial
escort to the airport

ffwd

our band APOTHëOSIZOR's first live show
halloween 2007
squibah's headed east
WE ALL KNOW WHAT HAPPENED NEXT
FUNERAL FOR OUR FRIEND
our band played a show in the afterlife

...and so it went with the rest of 2007 folks...I i was thrown in the psych
ward 11 times in 2007 for my stress related outbursts...Living my life tied
to my laptop devising memorials to raven and staring up at the RIOTSTAR2012
nightly and bawling--the waves of tears kept coming. I couldn't find comfort
anywhere since i had no proper place to live during this whole time.

on jan 1st 2008 I became officially homeless in the shelters for a short
time till my father let me live on his back porch for a month and then i
moved up to d.c. and quickly was thrown into solitary confinement for 21
days in a little black dress for "defacing a monument" aka breaking a window
to my roomates condo to use the facilities when i was locked out...

squibah flew east on her black wings on st.patricks day and bailed me out in
time for the spring solstice but on her departure i had a seizure inside an
ambulance...---lost my wallet on easter blah blah blah surrounded by cops
the dae before my bday another trip to the psych ward

MY APOLOGIES GATHERERS FOR RAMBLING ON ABOUT MY PERSONAL STRUGGLES--I JUST
HAD TO GET IT OUT TO PEOPLE THAT ARE RELEVANT

THE POINT IS IS THAT MY STRUGGLES ALL ENDED THIS PAST AUGUST IN THE MOST
EXTRAVAGANTLY MIND BLOWING FASHION...

i was homeless again...couch surfing---lost in a sea of unseen forces and
chaotic ritualism---i was living for the upcoming killing joke gigs--had a
ticket with squibah and a guest to the l.a. show(and thank you gatherers for
the pep talk at the 5 month countdown till october!)

i was stuck at a streetcorner arranging the detritus from the previous pizza
party me and my friend had partaken of in my own chaotic sacred geometric
way and all of a sudden 2 fire trucks pulled up and terrified me and I took
off running---ran blocks and blocks until i was face to face with more fire
trucks--all I remember is seeing the little "tm" on the license plates and
realizing terence mckenna was with me and everything would be ok...

next thing I know my mind is filled with this vast,epic vision involving the
key powerful players of my life on a mission to save me...

i woke up naked and alone in a cell.

the vision went on.

The Gates of The Clan of Raven were opened for me and I was given
Protection.

Black birds everywhere...

I woke up again in a chair with a guard so sore i was unable to move.

My parents walked in.

My mom handed me a photo of my daughters she had just taken. They left.

The guards rushed me back into the paddywagon and back into jail.

I thought i had been drugged.

A week later my dad came and said had suffered a heart attack.

another week and my day in court came up--they wanted to give me 6 months
for disorderly conduct.
THE INQUISITIONS TURNED INTO A WAR AGAINST THE "MENTALLY ILL"

I got out and was sent to this medical respite place for ther homeless for 2
and 1/2 months in the hood.
squibah kept me company there as usual but i was stuck wondering wtf had
happened.
time came up at the homeless place and my dad welcomed me back into his
place.
CHANGE IS GOOD!
found a loft apt.downtown near the poe museum for 575$ everything included
signed a new lease on life
my first ever!
things are like never before

LIVE FOR PEACE

FIGHT CONTROL

I AM SOUNDMAGICK.

soundmagick is the form of witchcraft i practice.

i am sorry for the vast array of unneccesary words i have typed with my
fingers into the textbox,gatherers.

KILLING JOKE remains at the forefront of my life as far as audio goes.

KILLING JOKE ARE A RELIGION!!!!

and what has happened to me personally in my life with raven is something
that is so comforting to me and powerful and reaffirming in such a way that
my life has been forever changed through the impact that paul left on me and
the ensuing transformation that took place when he left this world and
transformed into a force in my life far beyond that of a mere mortal.

yeah,i'm weird-i know--i've been separated from society ever since i first
spoke up on leap day of 1988.

enough of this silliness-everyone knows i'm illiterate i think(or am i just
being paranoid?)

GOOD DAYS TO YOU ALL,FELLOW GATHERERS

13 MINUTES TILL 4:20

WHO'S GOT THE MAOI WOWEE?

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